Ok so this is the first time i have felt the need to write one of these and i feel i am doing it more for myself than anyone else.

So today i found out some friends of mine were in a very serious car accident, Two of the people involved died one of which was a 1 yr old. The others are critical.

Now this is all very sad some people might say and every one i know around me has been crying and some even praying but this is where i have a problem. I have never been one for faith... sure i went to a church school, but due to reasons i won't go in to, i have to say it has me divided.

Part of me no longer believes in god because i think if there was surely he wouldn't let this happen.

on the other hand i feel like god exsists and hes a mean SOB, like a kid with a really big ant farm and a magnifying glass.

In which case i want to say I HATE YOU